It's Him..

Yesterday night, or I can say midnight, he gave me a call.
To tell you the truth, it has been a long time we no keep in touch.
Hmm..
It lasted for one hour something. Until his phone had no battery. Haha.
Maybe, I still miss him.
Or maybe not.

So many things strike me as familiar.
And it's still clear in my mind.
Like what you watch the slide show.
Slide by slide.

We talked a lot on the phone.
We laughed.
We sang.
Just like what we did in the past.

I shouldn't think so much about that.
But it's hard for me to not bother it.
Confusing.

Now, it's time for me to stop.
Stop thinking about him.
And think about the future.

We can't change the past.
But we got the right, are able
To change, to choose
what future we want.

So, it's time for me to adjust to the real world.
That's..
Continue my Homework!!!!

Just For Choon..

Rest In Peace...

A New Start! Part 2

Hey dudes! The beginning of 2010, it seems like everything's not smooth and easy to get into the new subjects and even the previous subjects we learnt before. All of them are tough as the SPM formats are totally DIFFERENT compare to PMR. No wonder a lot of people said that PMR so easy nia.==

So sucks! [sighed]. The school reopens, Tuitions also reopen. After school, I have to rush to the tuition centre. It really makes me dizzy. Even I need to having my lunch in the car. == And today is already the 2nd day. Gosh. There's still got 1 more year for me to rush. @@

Let me show you my list of tuitions, it's really out of breath:
Sunday = Chemistry = 4 to 6
Monday = Add. Math. = 3.20 to 6
Tuesday = B.Malaysia = 4 to 6
Wednesday = Physic = 8 to 10
Thursday = English = 4 to 6 (but maybe will change to Sunday night. Sunday is pretty busy day for me starting from next month.)
Saturday = Chinese = 7.15 to 10

Hmm..Anyway, it's worth! =) I will face it with my grinning face all the time! To all my friends, seniors and juniors, Gambateh!!

Well. Now is already 10.55pm. It's not holiday anymore. It's late, guys. I'm going to sleep. Good night, D..

A New Start!

Hey, everyone!
I know I had been a long time no updating my blog. Sorry~~ =)

As you all know, it's easy to judge people.
eg 1: eii, that boy so leng zai lerh..
eg 2: A: eii, she write the essays so well!
B: Aiya, u dun know meh, her english so pro de..
eg 3: that one, XXX so clever, his/her future sure very bright and do a good job.

BUT, it's hard to know your own personality, ability and resposibility. I think we should always ask ourselves. Who am I actually? How the person am I? Some people just follow their friends blindly. For instant, the place of tuition, take what subjects, read novels (espeacially English), the wearing style, buy branded thing (for action)...I think those examples always happen in your surroundings. Right?

But to tell you the truth, I'm not really know that what kind of person am I. I need someone to tell me about that if you find something of me. I know a theory of, when you come to this world, don't care how pretty or ugly you are, how high or low IQ and EQ you got, how lucky or unlucky you are, how rich or poor you are, You should do your best, play your own role. And I start to be myself now. =) Finding.. The real side of me....

TAGged by Hannee..

1. 你的名字 - 张慧君
2. 最近最鬱闷的事? - haven't hang out with friends and my weight..arghhh
3. 最受不了自己的哪个缺点? - 哭包，批评人
4. 遇到喜欢的人，你会勇敢表白还是默默关注？- 默默关注…后…再勇敢表白…哈哈
5. 说出点你名的人3个优点(不可删除）：是我的最好的聆听者，能够体谅（我…嘻嘻！），
6. 以一个形容词形容点名的人的外表 -小孩脸…
7. 你现在最想拥有的是什麼? - 新的电脑！
8. 什麼时候感觉最开心? - playtime lo..
9. 恋人／老公／老婆让你最欣赏的优点是什麼?- play basketball very well, English well too =)
10.说出5个好朋友 - Hannee (only gua..haiz)
11.现在最想做的事? - erm..do some preparations for next year
12.接下来最想去旅行的国家或城市 ? - 欧洲，台湾
13.你为什麼要回答这些问题 ? - maybe through this quiz, other people will know more about me
14.你觉得点你名的这个人是什麼样的个性 ? - "qing xu hua"
15.什麼时候觉得孤独 ? - 没有朋友的陪伴加上家人的
16.最近一次掉眼泪是 ? - 2009 Christmas Day
17.请列出喜欢的饮料 ? - 薏米水，苹果汁
18.家人重要还是伴侣重要 ? - 家人
19.你希望点你名的人成为你的 ? - 永远拆不散的死党！
20.觉得生命中少不了什么？-朋友……最真挚的朋友！

爱疯了 戴佩妮

不敢问 却一直想问 你心里藏着什么人

不敢猜 却一直想猜 如回去有没有可能

我不够完整 你给的从来不够完整

你一个语气都无法确认 这种缺乏是什么象征

不开灯 我不要开灯 我身边容不下别的人

不锁门 我不要锁门 你回来是一种信任

我那么的认真 去思考你对我的认真

或许是多么伤害人而 结论始终是疑问

我爱疯了 我疯到自己痛也不晓得

放弃了保护自己的责任

放弃了抵抗脆弱的天份

我不管了 我不管这伤口能不能愈合

选择了你也许是错的人

选择包容了你的不安分

我尊重我的 选择

我想我 疯了

Everything is just A Past...

Hi, dudes!

Erm..I'm tidying my Form1, 2 and 3 reference books up actually. The books are all in a mess and covered with thick dust! There are some books on my table too. Keep sneezzing when arranging those books on the shelfs. The dust particles also cause my skin feel itchy~~Hate the feeling!

In between the books, I find something that makes me recall someone else whom I shouldn't to think about. And I left all my books behind and come blogging. It's a cardboard, written there his name. It happened last year, a camp. [Sorry, I don't want to spell it out what camp is it.] This cardboard is used to let others people know who you are. He asked me to keep it as...I didn't know what for, maybe it's just a memory.

And now, I'm not in a relationship with him anymore. The cardboard will also be sold together with my exercises for recycling. It symbolises nothing for me, and him too. As, Everything is just A Past. And he is just one of my life's passengers. [I think the word of passenger is suitable to describe him barh]

ps: Hehe... It's time for me to keep going to do with my books. Have a nice day!