The Brightest Chapter in Uni Life

This year is nearly coming to an end, 5 more days to go and a brand new year is gonna started very soon. I gonna miss every single thing which comes together in this semester.

Before this semester started, I joined a industrial trip which was 3D2N. It was so awesome to learn and expose myself to new things and the best part is meeting new friends. Meeting them is the key to unlocked this semester.

To me, this semester is the most fruitful.

• Kayak - For my one hour credit co-curriculum activity, at first I would like to choose swimming to be my coQ of this sem but it's too bad that there are limited spaces for this and I ended up swimming in the lake. Haha. I chose kayak. It was so fun and a very good experience. Besides learning the new technique of kayaking, which includes paddling and self-rescue (which you need to act capsize scene lol) , I get to know better about my Malay coursemates, It was all about fate. I chose this coQ without asking anyone to join me since it's actually kind of extreme sport even though we just practice in the calm lake water. After the first class, I only get to know few of them and build the bonds among us.

• UPAG (UTP Performing Arts Group) Dancer - I joined this club since last semester. I was a newbie and what I can do is just practice practice and practice that time. But this year, I got the chances and manage to perform 3 dances for events: Convo Dinner in front of Tun Dr. Mahathir, UTP HAX and Microscopic Conference Dinner in front of VIPs and lecturers. I feel proud to be part of them, even though I need to practice every night from 9 to 12, we actually share the same interest, passion and feel happy to dance and perform in front of others. To be truthful, I like the moment, standing of the stage, when the light shines on you, you feel fearless and this is where your confidence comes from. I like dancing and I wish to own some good memories in Uni which I won't feel regret after graduation. That's why I'm here. UPAG Hot to go! 

• UPAG Crew - Besides being a dancer, I play the role of a crew when I was not involved in the particular dance outside UTP. We won 1st runner-up in the competition named Festival Tari Malaysia.

• Concert in UiTM Shah Alam - It was an awesome and great performance done well by the uni performers even though there was an technical problem during the drama. I liked the dance no matter traditional or modern. You guys really did a good job which really opened up my eyes!

• Unlocked-Keys - During the trip, I get to know a bunch of new friends which I never notice and know their existence before. Friends from Turkmenistan, Yemen, Chad and local as well. LOL. Some of them I still keep in touch with. Again, it's all about fate. Fate pulls us together at the same time and shines together and lighten up this semester. Make it worthwhile and the brightest moment! 

• Event Management Seminar (EMS) - I agreed to my Malay coursemate to help him out to be the facilitator of the event. Through this event, I learnt a lot which is other than academic. I get to know another bunch of Malay coursemates and 2 other Malay girls from other course. We even hang out together to have Sushi King as lunch and Dominos as dinner! These are the celebration of event success and also a token of appreciation for the facilitators.

• Kayak Convo Race - This race was held on behalf of the convocation. I joined mixed-double in the race. We emerged as 1st-runner up in the race. The bad part was that the medals for mixed-double only one. I kept the medal and we share the cash prize RM50. 

Last year during the second sem, I met an accident and broke my right last small toe. And this year second sem, my left eye lid which was believed that the gland opening was dust or bacteria infection there due to eye rubbing with my dirty hand, grew a stye. Thanks to my friends who fetched me to see the eye specialist and him as well who drove me and accompanied me to have the operation. I cherish and appreciate the people who spent their precious time on me. Because in the history, I will be part of their life and so do them in mine no matter they remember or not. Time is precious and never go backwards.

Final exam is just 10 days away from now. I should stop here and back to study. 

You only live once. So Smile and Be a happy kid. Peace!

Learn to be a better person

After going through lots of things, I learned many things from other people and also myself.

It's good not to complain and blame whenever things happen. Instead, we should learn to appreciate people surrounding you. This is the key point I should learn.

Well. Words are easier to say than practicing this to make it a norm. I will get it a try to make a difference of myself.

One thing I would like to share with you. I decided to continue practising my guitar until I really can play well. I want to hold something I really like and learn it. Another thing is I want to dye my hair! My very first time to dye my hair. This might be normal to you but I feel excited to see myself with coloured hair.  =D  So stay tuned! ^^

Be A Happy Kid..

You can only blame yourself.

All these happenings depend on what I've done, what decision I have made. I don't know why and what happen to me, but I just don't feel like attaching on any group of people. I walk alone before the class and after the class today.

Right after one class, there was another class at Pocket C. I was on my way together with my coursemates but i was walking few meters from them. Such a coincidence, I actually saw him and his coursemates at Block 17 level 1 who had just finished their test 2. But I pretended, pretending that I didn't notice them. I just don't feel like looking at them awkwardly, especially him.

I think this kind of feeling will only end after graduation where we already have our own new path to proceed to another stage of life. Nothing I can do now but just to avoid him and let it go slowly and to forget as time passed by. Of course precious moment will still stay in my mind.

I'm scared and don't dare to accept anyone or to believe a person who will love me that much. Only family some best friends who I really cherish in my life and really care about me. Thanks for always staying beside me.

Stay strong and be a Happy Kid. It's time for me to do revision on Fluid Mechanics.

Back to this space

After 2 years and a half, I'm back to this space, covered with such thick dust, to share my thoughts. Throughout this period, many things happened. Ups and downs. Come together and leave. Couple and single. When I think back, I just.. laugh at myself because all these are ridiculous. A person who was once so close to you, but our hearts are so far away from each other. During shower, I did a lot of thinking. Think what I have done, what I have said, what I need to do and so on. 

People come and go in my life, some I decided to let them go, and some. I forced them to go (I'm bad). Until today, I just realize each of them come with a mission. After their mission complete, they just leave, leave me a lesson of life. 

One of the lesson that I practice now is eating alone is not a big deal. Last time I was used to have my meal with him and I seldom eat with other friends which caused my friend circle is just that "big". So, I was afraid to eat alone. Because when you are coupled and you are eating alone, people will ask you "where is he?", which I don't like to listen about it. And now, I have learnt from my life passenger, Gordon who told me eating alone is not a matter. When you are working outside, you stay at a foreign place alone, you need to be independent. It's time to eat, then you should go and have your meal. So now being single, I found myself that I have really grown up instead of depending on him. 

I have learnt from HIM to be strong, independent, mature in doing things after his leaving. And I really did it, trying hard to do it. It's so awkward to see him, meet him in the campus. I would rather than not to meet him in my daily life. Although we are still friends, the link that connects us is like.. there is a knot there. Nowadays, I don't know how and what should I react when I see him. I might just talk like what I talk to those my male coursemates. But still..hmm.. Whatever. I believe that time will dilute the pain, the feel and the care. 

I never think of I could write this long. Hope I will feel better after posting this. 

Be A Happy Kid.